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Have you known someone who absolutely finds you annoying on almost every level? Someone that gives you looks that could kill? Sensed their aura oozing with distain for you and the things you do ? And Even when you try to ignore that someone,thier over dramatic stares, heavy brethes you can feel them inside somewhere deeply even without knowing? What if that someone were a Family member,someone close someone who's DNA you share?
I know someone like this.
And... today it's too much to bear.in fact each day that goes by my ability to be strong and brave diminishes and I become weaker and weaker.succumbing to the quick reliable pain relief coping mechanism which I've created for myslef for the last 15 years. What I suffer from isn't simply and eating disorder..it's a full blown case of self hatred self punishment and self neglect. It has become extremely and has become so much a part of my habits and normal daily activities that it really requires deep thoughthe to recognize that they are not normal, nor are they they way my hevan ly father created my brain to think. I need to chew on this for the nigjt..with some prayer and hope that tommorow I will be able to bear the burden once more.
